So, I’m in my second trimester now. I have heard this referred to as the ‘honeymoon of pregnancy’, because you’re supposed to get an energy boost, and the nausea is supposed to subside. So far, this is not true for me, but it’s still early, right?
The first trimester was a bit surreal. I found out that I was pregnant on July 23, and those first couple of weeks were pretty easy. However, I was totally freaked out. I was worried about losing the baby, and I was worried about pregnancy in general. It’s one thing to conceptualize being pregnant, it’s another thing to stare reality in the face. While I was happy, I was also nervous at the prospect of a 4-pound baby residing inside of me, and kicking my internal organs. I’m still nervous about that, actually.
Around Aug. 7 or so, I started feeling sick and tired. I felt horribly betrayed by this whole process. I became emotional about everything. One day, I cried in the shower because I was tired and sick and decided that I’d made a horrible mistake. Then I felt guilty, and cried some more.
Anyways, this is supposed to fade to a distant memory soon enough. And I am waiting with baited breath.